sometime i wish i dont have to appear so strong.
when people ask me if i am fine,
i dont always have to say i'm ok, i am alright.
i could have said nope, i ain't fine at all instead.

when people ask are you crying?
i could have said yes i am,
instead of saying i am not.

sometime, i wish i have someone to lean on.
when i am getting all lost and tired.
guiding me and assuring me things will be fine.
so much of sometime.

i know things will never be the same again.
never will it be like last time anymore.
the words we spoke, we said.
seem so harsh and hurtful, maybe at least to me it is.

tonight, i aint fine.
i feel that the sky is falling.
so heavy, that i felt that i cant breath.

the pain is more then what i expected.
actually, the fact is much more.

as usual, i would hold back my tears till when i am alone.
i told myself not to tear not to cry.
but, it seem that they arent listening to me.
they are so naughty, it starting rolling down non stop.
i dont like this.

someone like me that dislike clubbing so much in the past,
get hooked on it and club like every week nowadays.
have you ever wonder why?
because, it is the only time i can stop thinking about all this.
yet, when i am drunk, i kept grumble your name.
idk, why is this happening so.
i really dont know, can you tell me why?

why am i so affected by you?
which i shouldn't be like what they have said.
i really wish i know why too.

i dont wish for anymore,
nor hoping for anymore.
wishes doesn't come true.

i dont know what to say anymore.